Taking a moment

This past weekend was incredible. Breathtaking... amazing... beautiful.

Exactly what I needed.

My boyfriend had never been to the mountains before this past weekend!! It was just awesome watching him experience the magnificent beauty and rugged landscape.

I love getting away from the city and spending time hiking and just enjoying nature. It's my natural high you could say!!

I've fallen in love... Mica Mountain Lodge It is so incredibly beautiful and peaceful there. I can't wait to go back and spend a few days relaxing and reflecting. I would love to go back and walk and think and process and heal. Amazing place to have something like a healing retreat...

It's amazing how I cross the border into B.C. and it just feels like home. It feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can breathe a little easier. Freer. I can laugh a deep meaningful laugh. A real laugh. I can stand and gaze at the mountains, at the trees, at the rivers, listen to the birds, watch animals grazing and just get lost in serenity.

I can relax.

I had a nightmare Saturday night. It was the first time my boyfriend got to experience one of my nightmares.

It scared him.

I was kicking wildly in my sleep. I don't even remember it. I don't remember dreaming and I certainly don't remember kicking like a mad woman! I'm shocked that I didn't wake up as normally I wake in a cold sweat absolutely terrified. I guess at the same time it's a good thing I don't remember it because if it was scary enough to cause me to kick violently in my sleep I don't even want to know! I can safely guess it was related to my father as the hair brush has been weighing heavily on my mind.

All in all, I'm back in my safe place... not completely numb but not completely overwhelmed either...