So now I'm fighting with my boyfriend. It's our first fight, argument, whatever.
I don't have the patience for this.
He's pissed at me for not showing up last night. In my defense, I told him I'd call him if I was going, I didn't call him so therefore, I wasn't going. Simple!
Now he's twice as mad because I said I wasn't sure if I was going to the BBQ tonight. I told him I'm in a "mood." He said "what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" I sighed and told him that I didn't really want to be around people right now. His reply "what, I'm just people? I guess I don't count for anything do I?" I didn't say anything for a few minutes and we sat in silence on the phone. I finally said "Fine, I'll go. But I'm taking my own car and if I want to leave I'm leaving."
So, guess I'm going to the BBQ, at least to show face for an hour or two and then take off and go back to bed where I've been since I got off work on Friday.
I really don't want to go. But I guess we do things we don't want to do sometimes to make the people in our lives happy.
Maybe it will be good for me right now to be around people instead of isolating myself and wallowing in self pity.
I don't know.
I don't know much of anything anymore...