My boyfriend is already making plans for that night...
I can't tell him I don't celebrate Valentines Day...
I think this year I will face it head on. I'm not sure if I'm ready to, but I can't let it continue to have a hold on me. What happened that day will forever be a part of me. It has changed me, but it doesn't control me. Yeah... just keep telling yourself that.
It doesn't control me.
Right!
I was standing in line yesterday at the bank, there was a man standing behind me a little too close. I have a 3 foot bubble, MY personal space. He invaded it. He brushed his hand against my ass, I just stood there frozen, my legs felt like jello and my heart started to pound. I think he apologized but I'm not entirely sure. The teller had to call my number 3 times before I heard her and realized I was next.
Who freaks out at a simple accidental touch? Who splits (as I've started to call it) in a public place?
This isn't the first time it has happened either, but it is the event that stands out most in my mind. Probably because it's the most recent.
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I am needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I am needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
2 comments:
Stay strong, one day at a time, like revolutionary blogger says: also remember you can do this, you are a SURVIVOR!!
Rev and Holly,
You guys are awesome! Thanks so much for the encouragement!
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