Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no one else to blame
I'm not OK.
I keep telling myself to keep my head up, stay strong, using the mantra of this too shall pass - it sure doesn't feel like it though.
I keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again. I just don't learn.
I've been trying to stuff all of these rotten feelings down, keep them anchored and I KNOW it only makes it worse. I know from experience, yet I keep doing it. Old habits die hard maybe?? Nah, I'm just an idiot.
A failure. A disappointment. A waste of time.
Wow! It's really sad how I beat myself up and repeat the words I heard all the time growing up.
All alone, I don't like the feeling
All alone, I sit and cry
All alone, I have to find some meaning
In the center of the pain I feel inside
I burned my arm...