Friday, October 28, 2005


My mind will not stop which has been a real nuisance lately. It is incredibly exhausting to be continuously living sexual abuse.

My eyes are puffy with black circles. If I didn't know better, I'd think I was back with my husband and I was a human punching bag again. The exhaustion is getting worse. I want nothing more than sleep. Eight solid hours of sleep would be a Godsend right now. I don't think that is asking too much.

However I do know why I can't sleep. Nightmares. I don't know how to stop them.

I really wish I did.

All I want is sleep.


Ayne said...

It's so incredible to find someone who feels the exact same emotions at you, yet it's depressing. I don't want others to go through what I went, yet I find them everywhere.
I couldn't sleep, I still can't sleep. I have chronic insomnia, and get restless naps, only maybe 4 or hours normally. This has resulted in me having a severe migraine. School's a living hell.

Fallen Rose said...

I struggled with this for a long time. Medication finally helped me. It straightened out my brain chemistry. Not sleeping pills. I started taking prozac and abilify which was prescribed to me. They fixed my brain somehow, and as a result, I was able to sleep. They stopped the noise and the racing in my brain, so I could think clearly and have control over my thoughts. I took them for two years, and weaned myself off of them. I don't take them anymore. I find that so far, I'm able to sleep without them, but I have a supply on hand if I have to go back to it. So far, it's been a year, and I haven't needed them.