Monday, October 24, 2005

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Anxiety. Fear.

Sadness. Emptiness. Raw. Scared.

Broken.
Shame.

Embarrassment. Disgust. Dirty. Hate.


The above is what is running through my mind like a bad slide show. It is coupled with some images which is fueling the above thoughts and feelings.

I'm visualizing pressing the stop button to end the show, but it is not working. Sometimes the slides move very quickly, as if on fast forward; other times it's on slow motion and I get to see every little detail I don't want to see.

I wish my mind was like a dry erase board... one swipe with the magic eraser and it's all gone...

1 comment:

Fallen Rose said...

Me too. I think that's how it should be, you should be able to erase everything. I tried that for years. I think I still try.