Thursday, July 20, 2006

I hate her

I fucking hate you. After everything I've done for you, after everything I've given up for you... have you ever given anything up for me? Have you ever done anything for me?

NO

You only bring me down. You're only happy when you've crushed me.

I had to claim bankruptcy because of you. I spent every last fucking penny I had on you when you were sick and not working. Now when I'm in a jam and I ask you for help what do I fucking get?

"I've been where you've been, deal with it"

Well fuck you.

NEVER AGAIN AM I GIVING YOU ANYTHING. EVER.

The worst part of it? I expected you to help me. I actually thought you would. But no, it's like you punched me in the gut and spit in my face.

Thanks mom...

4 comments:

jumpinginpuddles said...

well done for saying how you feel about your mum, sad thing is its as much her fault as his and thats the hardest thing for survivors to look at

cheesemeister said...

Ouch!
I'm sorry to hear you went through that. It sucks to have completely unsupportive parents. But on top of that one of them was also terribly abusive.
Damn...
I really wish I had something better to say!

Wanda's Wings said...

I so sorry your mom wasn't there for you. Sometimes it seems are parents are our worst enemy.

I'm glad you could express your anger. Remember it her you are mad at and not yourself. Take care of yourself.

(((safe hugs from a friend)))

survivor said...

JIP - how right you are!!

Cheese - anything and everything you say is great! Thanks for taking the time to read and offer your support and words of wisdom :)

Thanks Wanda