There I was, laughing and playing pool with friends when out of nowhere this intense wave of sadness rushes over me. I bottled the sadness until I could no longer keep on the face. Told them I wasn't feeling well and needed to leave. It wasn't a complete lie, but not completely the truth either. I just didn't want to be around anyone, wanted to isolate myself and try to honor the sadness instead of pushing it down.
I am trying to find the cause of the sadness, the trigger. Unfortunately I have not connected with it as of yet and I have a strong feeling I will not.
Spoke too soon!
Have you ever felt completely alone, yet you are surrounded by people? Surrounded by good friends?
That is exactly what I felt. What I still feel.