Monday, August 06, 2007

That's My Job

I was going through my music folder on my computer earlier today and came across this song. As soon as I saw it, my heart stopped. At least it felt like it.

I played it.

And I cried. The tears just streamed down my face. I sat in front of my computer with my eyes closed feeling pain and grief. Loss.

The song hits me so strong because even though it's about a boy and his father, it's about a relationship I never had and never will have.

It's heartbreaking.

I needed to post it on here to let go of some of the pain the song creates. I can't hold it alone.

Thank you for sharing in my pain.

[That's My Job]


Cheesemeister said...

I know the song. It's a real tear jerker in any case. And especially hard for someone who endured what you did. May you find healing in other areas of your life. I am sorry for your father abusing your trust as he did.

Lynn said...

The 'never will have' realization can be hard when it finds us, even when it has been confronted before. It's good to deal with it.